(ctrl) and (+) magnifies screen if type too small.              me         quotes             scripture verse             footnotes       Words of Jesus      Links



About Us


Before Lily


     In 1964, on my fifteenth birthday, I went to live with my Dad in California. A few months later he got a job working for Lockheed in Saudi Arabia. Suddenly I was on my own. I had my Dad’s financial support, but from strongly regimented everything is black and white Alabama grandparents ... to no supervision, anything goes in Southern California was, well, quite a culture shock.

     I don’t think anyone is helped by recounting a laundry list of sin. Suffice it to say that two divorces, an over dose in the occult and a problem with alcohol had a major impact on the way I was raised by a Southern Baptist grandmother. The impact of every Sunday trips to church faded in the peanut shell covered dirt floor bars of West Texas. This would probably have been my final phase of degeneracy, except for Lily.

     On 7/20/83 Lily walked into my life. Her car had two flat tires at the same time in front of the store where I worked. Who has two flats at the same time? Two days later we went on our first date. She made it clear we had no future unless I changed. I said good-bye to the bars and alcohol and we were married 11/15/83.

     God is still using her to change me by how she responds to unkindness, selfishness, thoughtlessness and worse. She very frequently says “God is our portion” when clients cancel an appointment or someone takes financial advantage. Almost as frequently she says, “Let it go.” After 35 years of hearing her make these comments and knowing she believes them ... all I can say is, “I’m blessed.”


Staying busy


     Lily worked in various positions at Sears in Washington and California for almost nine years. From replenishment to Department Manager to inventory and point of sale management she excelled in everything she did, but when they started pushing her to go into general store management she left in 2004. Shortly afterwards she went to work for herself, cleaning people’s houses. Word of mouth recommendations, including requests for pet / house sitting keep her busy. She can only take on new clients if and when someone moves.


M-Div, but not a pastor


     I was in my last interviews with Home Depot and Target for a General Store Manager position when the opportunity to go to seminary presented itself. Lily and I discussed it and talked about how our lives would change going from a six-figure income to almost nothing, but we believed this was something God wanted us to do and we wanted to trust God.

     While in seminary, Dan Brunner, one of my professors at George Fox, asked me why I wanted a M-Div if I didn’t want to be a pastor. I believe my past disqualifies me from being a pastor. I really want to love God with all my heart and all my soul and all my mind and with all my might. I thought seminary would help with that goal. If God will enable me to do that ... it is enough. Meanwhile, this web site is my effort to hopefully help others.

     Since 2003 our path has not been a path that Lily or I would have chosen for ourselves, but through it all, as Lily has always said, God has been our portion. He has blessed our marriage with love and health and God has met our needs. Not only has God met our needs, God has blessed us with healthy sons and daughters-in-laws and ten healthy grandchildren.


... and now


     Lily and I are now what society calls empty nesters. We are healthy, un-medicated, and not ready to retire; physically, mentally or emotionally. We understand that who you are is NOT what you do or what you have. Most people think living the good life is somehow tangled up with what you see on television; career, nice house, car, money in the bank ... you know the narrative. I would certainly like to have those things for Lily, but God has finally brought me to the place where I understand that truly, when stuff is more important than your spouse, children, grandchildren, friends ... then your last breath and words will probably echo a dying Saul, “I have played the fool.”

     I was on staff at George Fox Evangelical Seminary, now Portland Seminary, as a spiritual director from January 2009 till July 2018. In 2013 I was invited to do spiritual direction for Psychology PhD candidates at George Fox University. I still work with private clients and skype and facetime with long distance clients.

     I consider Lean-into-God a ministry, and though donations are appreciated ... I am not a 501 so donations, though greatly appreciated are not tax deductible. As Lily says, "God is our portion."


Church Home


     After all these years Lily and I finally found a Church Home, Athey Creek. Washington and Oregon are the most unchurched states in America, so imagine our shock when we discovered that Wednesday night Bible studies draw several hundred people. Every Sunday service we have been at Athey Creek people have come to the Lord.

     My website was created to encourage people to read through the Bible in a year, so finding a Church built on going through the Bible book after book, chapter after chapter has been a shock and a blessing. Our excitement continues to grow.



     I Love to make videos

Least We Forget
     I made this in 2008


Least We Forget
I made this video in 2006




Chariots Of Fire
     I made this video in 2006


Chariots Of Fire
I made this video in 2006




Praise You In The Storm
     Casting Crowns


My Remix




I Exalt Thee - Phil Driscoll
     Great story about this song


I Exalt Thee



Christmas Memories 2014
     I love doing videos


Christmas Memories 2014




2008 - Tom’s No Greater Love
     My oldest son Tom wrote and sings


2008 - Tom’s No Greater Love




2008 - Learn To Be Still
     Remember the Eagles


Lily told me to listen to the words




My Redeemer Lives
     Nicole Mullins


I added clips to the official video
to fit the length of my CD.



Tom Nicholson
     Corners Of My Soul


My son Tom again with another great song




Twin Rocks
     At The Coast


3 -Day retreat at the coast.




Mount Up Like Eagles
     Phil Driscoll


Scripture




The Starbucks Priests
     A Video Poem


Video based on poem



In Excelsis Deo
     Remember Our Veterans


I edited a segment of West Wing
to make this video for our veterans.




Why God
     A Video Poem


A Video Poem



You
     A Video Poem


A Video Poem




A Seminary Project
     Social Justice


Social Justice



Footsteps To The Cross
     A Church Project


Footsteps To The Cross




Sounds of Silence
     Disturbed


A whole different sound
to an old favorite.




The Widow & Her Orphans
     A Seminary Project


The Widow & Her Orphans




Greatest Commandment
     Scripture


Greatest Commandment




Come To Me
     A Sad World


Come To Me




Sands of Time
     A Video Poem


Words by Anne Cousin
Based on Samuel Rutherford's Letters




Armor Of God
     Scripture


Armor Of God




Meditation
     From Morgan MacPherson


Adapted from a Prayer by
Rafael Cardinal Merry Del Val




Ragged old flag
     I like this a lot


Remembering our Veterans